On Being Here by Rose Cortez

Its been awhile since I've been here.
Its been awhile since I can hold myself
and really listen to you.
Its been awhile since I can even really sit down
and express what I've been really feeling.
It comes and goes,
my sadness with you.
I land at times
in moments 
when I really feel
that you are truly gone
from this physical world. 

But the stillness of my Quietness reminds me of you.
The reminder from  your eyes,
that is forever imprinted in my mind
only when I close my eyes.

Now I can be Silent and enjoy these moments,
because you've taught me how.

Today, I got my strength back to write and face my computer once again. Right at the beginning of February of last year, I was doing well with this new ritual of getting back to my roots of writing. I began creating and strength building started to roll forward. Then the beginning of last year began through the eyes of the sunset.  It began with the many unexpected series upon series of awakening events and encounters. I didn't expect the sequences of experiences that were unfolding. So much to digest. So much to absorb. All in one year! Suddenly I was watching myself, stand atop on a ferry, watching the sunset beyond the mountains and looking at the waves...that day I got the call...I got to use my real-life-longboard for the first time. And now here we are a couple months after everything...and I'm still riding these waves.

#loverose
Photo taken in Seattle, Washington at the Rose Garden 2015 - "Lotus Glitter"

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